All the trust gone

10:50 am in Life Poetry by Admin

Is it wrong to wish you pain?
Why is it when I stare
I see your face in the pouring rain
All I feel is the cruelty
And slowly I burn, with smoldering hatred
It comes and goes
But it never ceases to surprise me with its strength
The more I try to forget the harder it becomes
How dare you claim that you “hardly blame” me
When the blame rests solely on you
Why did you abandon me?
There are no answers that will explain
You said you hated the outcome that it felt wrong
But with you, it’s always the same song
You never meant to hurt me and never wanted to
But it seems that’s all you’ve ever done
You step up, make me trust you and believe
Then when I finally do just that, you leave
Hot or cold it’s all the same
Betrayed by you again
Always the same apology
Claiming I’m seeing it black and white
You put the blame on me for standing up
You claim it’s torture to look into the mirror
But it never seemed to end, except in MY tears
It wasn’t you crying for what you’ve done
It was me, and I admit it, you won
I can’t trust even the best intentions
Thanks to you and your cruel decisions
Every time I close my eyes and try to let go
I hear your words and it replays in my mind
All the things that happened the list of pain
This was the last straw, I guess I’m finally sane
So you’ve robbed me of the trust I had
I’d believe it hurt you, if you didn’t seem so glad

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